Sunday, November 8, 2009
I just wanted to elaborate on the need to say thank you and sorry to this particular person. This person is from 1F`08 & 2F`09, and why I want to type this out now (even though i am very sure you will not see it) is because we've reached the journey's end ):
and, Fotinians (though i doubt many of you come here), don't try to guess who this person is, cos i don't think you'll be able to anywaysxD
we've never really been very close, but true pure randomness, 对你有更深一层的了解.
i remember the first day of school in DHS, when we played an ice-breaker game where everyone stood in a circle and we threw a ball around to try and know all our new classmates' names. and we had to ask the 2 pple to our left and 2 pple to our right for their chi + eng name, as well as school.
and by then, i was beginning to realise that a lot of them were from those kinda "名校". you were the only one, out of the 4 pple, who weren't from those; and it made me feel less intimidated xD
but then, after that, you just became one of the faces in the crowd of Fotinians...
**fast forward to 2F`09**
1st randomness~ ice-cream sticks!!!
2nd randomness~ number picker!!!
3rd randomness~ numbers!!!
- long drought which started from paper -
beginning of the new season of randomness...
4th randomness~ can't really remember...paper? :-/
5th randomness~ picking numbers!!!
6th randomness~ ice-cream sticks!!!
7th randomness~ somewhat numbers again!!!
and so, try to be nice, cos must 合作愉快right? quite successful for a while, until one nasty incident.
you said sorry, but sometimes it's hard to forget, until some time later. and then everything was all right again, but then i guess a certain person said something, which made it not so all right? not very sure about this.
you have helped me and taught me a lot; and i know that i've never really been a friend to you most of the time, and for that, i'm sorry ):
when i was helping Felisia clear the stuff on the shelves behind in our classroom, we came across the cranes from Parent-Child Day last year.
**flashback to 1F`09**
and i remembered that, cos Michelle the sensei was not around, your parents asked me for help in folding the cranes. and i was saying "erm, i'm not very sure. i will help you ask for help." but they said, "never mind, just try." and my "trying" was really quite terrible, but it also made me realise that no matter how bad things may appear to turn out to be, you should just always try your best. (you all might think i am blatantly naive, being able to extract 道理s even from the simplest comment, but it's true~) and i guess that's why, no matter what, you will always do your best too. and whatever you do in future, i am sure you will continue to do it to your very best, and you'll go far yet. (:
there were times when i was really very angry with you, and with good reason too. but nobody is perfect, and in the course of the year, i'm sure i have also done many things which have annoyed others. and furthermore, the good far outweights the bad :D i'll never know what's going on in your mind, but can often make a very good guess now xD
i know many of you think i am quite 无心sometimes and cannot be 感动by things, but most of the time, i guess it's just cos i don't show it. and so, i just want to say, thank you, cos you've really changed my thinking, and sorry, for not always being a good friend. ):
...i just wish, i had realised all these earlier
--
talked to brigitte on MSN and she inspired me to look at our HWS graduation CD. the videos were just made out of pictures, and somehow, i couldn't really relate. then went to look at the "book of memories" and beganto realise why...looked up something i saw, and it was so ohmygosh. and made me remember other stuff too. ahh. shouldn't have looked at it at such a 情绪-wrecking time :-/
The end of the school year has passed, and 1F'08 & 2F'09 doesn't really exist anymore, except in our hearts and memories... (:
I know that most of the time, i say i'll be glad of the day when we are all streamed into different classes. but you know, you really only appreciate things after they are gone; 失去了才懂得拥有的幸福. there are many different kinds of pple in our class, and maybe because of that, not all of us get along that well, and ever since the beginning of this year, cracks already began to appear, and we were not that bonded. but this is what makes us such a special and diversified class~ this race through the last 2 years has not always been easy, but it is truly a lifelong learning experience.
1F'09; we were all quite bonded and had our various cliques, and got along very well. 2F'09; the cliques became not so evident, and we all started to mix around more. teachers started us off in having random-ed groups in project work, and soon, we started requesting for that even when it was not compulsory. i think that through this, i have gotten to know a lot more pple in the class; although this year, as many of you say, it is true that we are not that bonded anymore. but nevertheless, i feel that we were all able to have a "change of environment" (Shi Ting's words!) and become closer to more pple.
these projects have taught me many things too. even though at times i may have more 负担, as zhenglaoshi said, they have been great learning points. from projects, you can really see different pple's attitudes and approaches to stuff. not all projects have been very successfully or brilliantly done, but at least you can 吸取经验 from each and every one of them.
this is only the second time that i really experience such 离别的惆怅. kindergarten to primary school and primary 1 to primary 2; i was too young to feel the difference. and from primary 2 to primary 6, my classmates stayed more or less the same, so from year to year, there really wasn't any sadness at all. primary 6 to secondary school; graduation year - first time when we cried and didn't want to move on. when you are living in the midst of things, you have this illusion that they will stay the same and never change, and you'll never have to say goodbye to all the familiar things and friends around you. then this time has come again; the transition from sec 2 to sec 3. this is particularly significant, as we have already made a major decision in terms of our subject combination, which will have some influence on our future. as we move from sec 2 to the more hectic and busy sec 3 life, we are really leaving younger childhood times behind D: and i just want to say, even though 2F'09 had many cracks and differences, we still shared many 美好时光 together.
whether any of us will end up in the same class again, remains to be seen. i believe quite a lot in 随缘, which is also why i type all this out here instead of sending it in an email to the whole class. and for those Fotinians out there reading this, remember to always follow your dreams :D i know there are some of you who change your dreams because of certain things. but one thing i have always thought, is that you should never let any stuff or most importantly, anybody, get in the way of your dreams. but howsoever that may be, 永记 this: Have faith in your dreams; if you work hard and keep believing, someday your rainbow will come smiling through.
lastly, this is a song's lyrics for Fotinians (;
thank you for all that you guys have done for me~
红蜻蜓
看那红色蜻蜓飞在蓝色天空
游戏在风中不断追逐它的梦
天空是永恒的家
大地就是它的王国
飞翔是生活
我们的童年也像追逐成长吹来的风
轻轻地吹着梦想慢慢地升空
红色的蜻蜓是我小时候的小小英雄
多希望有一天能和它一起飞
当烦恼越来越多 玻璃弹珠越来越少
我知道我已慢慢的长大了
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时
也在我岁月慢慢不见了
我们都已经长大
好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到的红色的蜻蜓
我们都已经长大
好多梦还要飞
就像现在心目中红色的蜻蜓
oh yeah, and for those of you who have BSP scholarship interview, jiayous and all the best!(:
Monday, November 2, 2009
HELLO. (:
been abandoning my last quiz.
wheeheehee, don't feel like doing xD
finally took an MRT with the new system!
the one that shows you the stops and which side the door is opening
yeah, i know i'm very lag & noob cos it's aldy been out for some time
but recently not been taking MRTs, always 158 and 31-ed home.
couldn't stop staring at it xD
post-exam activities have been quite. erm. okay?
dk what to say about them.
today seems very weird.
cos of a number of factors, ahhh
i'm so sorry!!! (even though i didn't cause it)
and thank you, thank you so much for not minding!(:
but you won't see this anyways...
criedagaintodayfordkwhatreason...
actuallynoiknow
butstillidkwhattodo
somessy...
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
THIRD QUIZ~
1. Can you fill this out without lying?
isn't that the whole point?
2. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
my dinner
3. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
don't think have
4. Can you play guitar hero?
lousily.(: always play it at jieting's house during guanyue gatherings~!
5. Name someone that made you laugh today?
a lot of people! -
jiahwan the NOOBIE HOLLOW HEAD cos of her funny comments! :D
beverly and jacalyn - index 4 and 6, cos 有欢笑有泪水over results!
(not so much of the 泪水lah, or maybe not at all, hahas)
meiyou and alicia cos of their lameness! ^^
regina cos she made me feel sooo predictable!
david cos he said the bad-mouthing darren thing!
(which is so ironic cos darren is so well aware of it and it can't be called bad-mouthing!(:)
shi ting cos she almost made me puke up my lunch while laughing!
(ahems, shi ting that mumble grumble buzzing bee! (=)
juner cos of the theory on telepathy~!
brigitte cos she said she lost her HWS graduation CD! *aiyo, 老公,tsktsk*
6. How late did you stay up last night and why?
almost 1am. cos of 神雕<333
7. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
depends on where
8. Which of your friends live closest to you?
hmm, idk, quite a lot live near me xD
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
depends
10. Calling or texting?
depends on who i want to contact
11. How do you feel about dr. pepper?
huh? what's that...
12. When was the last time you cried really hard??
last friday =.=
13. Where are you at the moment?
home
14. Was yesterday better than today?
no. my results were worse today hahaha
but actually, maybe yes. cos all the trauma is over :)
15. Can you live a day without TV?
totally
16. Are you mad about anything?
don't think so
17. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
never really extremely before bah
18. Are you a bad influence?
eh! i'm such a good person! how dare you suggest i'm a bad influence! lol
19. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
CO should be resuming next week :)
[ohh yay~!]
20. How do you feel about your life right now?
full of decisions to make
21. Do you hate anyone?
guess so. TRYING not to xD
22. If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find?
messages(: duhhh~! :D
23. Can you easily tell if someone's fake?
think so
24. What song is stuck in your head?
红蜻蜓 ^^
25. Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
anybody lah. 平时不做亏心事，半夜敲门也不惊! hahaha
26. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
erm...go to school? xD haha
27. Can you whistle?
yeah, but i do it by sucking in air, not blowing out ^^
28. Do you think too much or too little?
should be too much? was flipping through my pri school stuff just now =X
29. Do you smile a lot?
not really. and apparently recently very little, as a lot of pple say.
oops! must SMILE:)
30. Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
joey
31. Can you handle the truth?
yeah...
32. What was the last book you read?
The Ghost in the Graveyard. - sweet valley(: it's the so-called "chiller" series.
but apparently it was not scary at all -.-
33. Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a conversation with?
no!
34. Are you an emotional person?
I AM NOT! but there a lot of pple who will say i am. well well.
35. What's something that can always make you feel better?
running, i guess
36. Will this weekend be a good one?
how would i know? i can't see into the future xD
37. Look behind you. What do you see?
the fan. and wall -.-
38. What would you name your future daughter?
huh... how i know
THE END :)))))
Saturday, October 24, 2009
SECOND QUIZ~
100 questions, oh no!
1. Pick out a scar you have and explain how you got it.
the one on my right knee. fell down on the track during some race.
but it's not very visible now :)
2. What is on the walls in your room?
mirror, some jigsaw picture, and a magnet thingy with my name.
the last two are both birthday presents, from my cousins and JE respectively.(:
3. What does your phone look like?
vodafone. it's brown. flip phone!
4. What music do you listen to?
any and all
5. What is your current desktop picture?
the view from my living room window ^^
6. What do you want more than anything right now?
to be done with this thing ><
7. What time were you born?
5 plus
8. Are your parents still together?
yes.
9. What are you listening to?
Nothing
10. Do you get scared of the dark?
no
11. The last person to make you cry?
myself.
12. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like on the same sex?
any
13. Do you like painkillers?
idk, and i don't want to know!
14. Coffee or energy drinks?
both ^^
15. Fave pizza topping?
any. i'm not picky, haha (:
16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
erm. no idea...anything lah :)
17. Who was the last person you made mad?
don't know.
18. Do you speak another language?
what's the definition of another language, lol. other than what?
i speak english, chinese, some jap, a teeny bit of hokkien and malay, and more of hainanese
haha.(:
19. What was the last gift someone gave you?
errrm. keychain...
20. Do you like someone?
ahh, no.
21. Are you double jointed?
no!
22. Favourite friend?
dunno
23. What's your dream car?
no idea :-/
24. Would you fall in love knowing that the person is leaving?
erm. eh. ahh. dunno!
25. Say a number from 1-100
5! my index number :)
26. Blond or brunette?
either. lol.
27. What is the one phone number that shows up on your phone the most?
for sms or calls?
28. What annoys you most?
erm, a lot of things! :-/
29. Have you been out of the U.K.?
i've never even ever been in the U.K.! haha :D
30. Your weakness?
always not confident of myself?
31. What was the last gift you gave?
carine's birthday present
32. What was your favourite holiday?
i like all holidays (:
33. Ever done a prank call?
yes. super lame =.=
34. What were you doing before this?
eating dinner
35. What do you get complimented about most?
don't know. results, maybe? but it's not good lor.
36. What would you do if alcohol became illegal?
no difference! still under 18, it has always been illegal to me
37. What do you want for your birthday?
anything! lol.
38. Were you named after anyone?
no! my name is unique! hahaha
39. Do you wish on stars?
no...
40. Do you like your handwriting?
yeah! *egos* haha :)
41. What is your favourite vegetable?
kailan! and maybe also kangkong cooked with chilli!
42. Any bad habits?
don't know. lots, haha (:
43. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
i only have one! the hongwen graduation thingy
44. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
of course lah. i'm such a nice person! *egos again* hehheh^^
45. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
no
46. Do looks matter?
no, but the way you present yourself matters.
47. How do you release your anger?
RUN! if there's nowhere to run, then just glower around, i guess [=
48. Where is your second home?
grandparents' house i suppose.
but during exam period, it was the 春夏秋冬!
49. Do you trust others easily?
no...
50. What was your favourite toy when you were little?
Snoopy! a small stuffed one from an SIA flight.
brought back by my mum when she took the plane on a business trip^^
51. Are you afraid of growing up?
no.
52. Do you use sarcasm?
OH YES! definitely. i use it a lot(:
53. Are you religious?
maybe a bit?
54. Do you get along with your parents?
yeah!
55. What is the most pain you have ever experienced?
some ankle problem...cos too much running in pri school D:
56. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
sometimes have, sometimes never.
57. Last thing you spilled?
water. when eating lunch in the canteen the other day.
58. Do you have any pets?
no. used to have some fish (:
59. Favourite colours?
blue, pale yellow, peach
60. What's the last book you read?
A Chance To Shine by Lauren Brooke. reading 丢三落四的小豆豆now.
61. Do you want everyone to answer these questions?
no, won't give them such agony, haha (:
62. What's your dream vacation?
no idea~
63. Last think you ate/drank?
plain water.
64. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Beverly Chan! and i found out she scammed me! zzz
65. Do you believe in love at first sight?
not really...
66. Favourite drink?
soya milk.
67. Favourite zodiac sign?
Capricorn. Mine!
68. What is your favourite sport?
RUNNING~!
69. What is your hair colour?
black, with some dark brown strands
70. Eye colour?
black
71. Tall or short?
somewhere in the middle? 1.6
72. Siblings?
no... usedtohave.
73. Favourite month?
no favourite ^^ all!
74. Do you like sushi?
yeah
75. Last thing you watched?
神雕侠侣
76. Favourite day of the year?
don't have also (:
77. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
eh. maybe?
78. summer or winter?
winter! cos during EOY period, spent more time in the 冬!
79. relationships or one night stands?
relationships.
80. Who is the most likely to answer these questions?
dunno
81. Who is least likely to answer these questions?
also dunno.
82. Is anyone in love with you?
how i know. do i look psychic to you?
you so interested you go find out lah(:
83. Biggest fear(s)
Flying cockroaches and swinging bridges!
84. Loud or quiet?
depends. but mostly quiet bah.
85. Favourite movie?
the cartoon kind. haha(:
86. In the past year have you met someone who has changed your life?
yeah think so
87. Have you ever rejected someone's call on purpose?
erm. yes?
88. facebook or myspace?
neither
89. morning or night?
both(:
90. Do you spend your life on facebook?
no. i don't even use it -.-
91. Describe yourself in one word
me~!
92. Dream job?
used to be music teacher. but now, dunno.
politician? haha, not really lah. (:
93. Do you believe in after-life?
guess so
94. What do you think of marriage?
far away.
95. Have you done something you regretted in the past year?
maybe. should be.
96. Is there someone you want to be with right now?
yeah. beverly chan. cos i want to murder her for asking me to do this quizzes!
97. If you could get plastic surgery what would it be?
NOTHING! yikes i don't like it. natural is the best(:
98. Who was the last person you watched a movie with?
erm. so long ago le. can't remember. guanyue pple i think
99. What was it?
if it's guanyue pple it's transformers
100. TAG 25 PEOPLE!
ohmygosh that's finally the end?
YAY!
not going to tag, as always, do if you want(:
will do the next 2 quizzes another day
too tired already. zzZ
Good night, darlings :)
okay. this is the first quiz beverly chan wants me to do.
there's like, four in total o.o
she's crazy(:
10 years ago:
[3 years old]
Who did you have a crush on?
nobody.
Who was your best friend?
Angela and Chye How
Have you been in an accident?
no
Where did you live?
tampines
Did you believe in Santa Claus?
no
Did you have long or short hair?
first half of the year, short;
after that it grew long
What school were you in?
nursery? PAP one i think.
6 years ago:
[7 years old]
Who did you have a crush on?
no one
Who was your best friend?
JE and brigitte
What was your fave colour?
blue; cos i was in blue house in hongwen! haha.
Have you been in an accident?
zZZ no
Where did you live?
Yio Chu Kang
Did you believe in Santa Claus?
nope. never ever believed.
Did you have long or short hair?
long
What school were you in?
Hong Wen School!
2 years ago:
[11 years old]
Who did you have a crush on?
erm...don't have?
Who was your best friend?
YBoonSee and brigitte
Have you been in an accident?
NO! why keep asking!!!!!
What was your favourite colour?
still blue.
Where did you live?
Boon Keng
Did you believe in Santa Claus?
no!! this is getting repititive-.-
Did you have long or short hair?
long...
What school were you in?
仍然HWS
Now:
[13 years old]
Who did you have a crush on?
eh. what's wrong with your english!
should be present tense, not past tense.
Who was your best friend?
wrong tense again. tsk tsk.
Have you been in an accident?
no!!!!! stop cursing me!!!!!!
What is your fave colour?
blue, pale yellow and peach(:
Where do you live?
Boon Keng
Do you believe in Santa Claus?
sick and tired of answering you le -.-
Do you have short or long hair?
LONG
What school are you in?
Dunman High!
Tag 10 people to do this!
(not going to, do if you want bah)
Friday, October 23, 2009
If You Love Me For Me
Once a lass met a lad
You're a gentle one, said she
In my heart I'd be glad
If you loved me for me
You say your love is true
And I hope that it will be
I'd be sure, if I knew
That you loved me for me
Could I be the one you're seeking?
Will I be the one you choose?
Can you tell my heart is speaking?
My eyes will give you clues
What you see may be deceiving
Truth lies underneath the skin
Hope will blossom by believing
The heart that likes within
Who can say where we'll go
Who can promise what will be
But I'll stay by your side
I'll be yours
Together we shall always
Be as one
If you love me for me
--
actually idk what to say about this ><
cos it's my dear beverly chan that asked me to put this song-.-
but yeah, it's true in some ways
applicable in different ways to different pple (:
